Exhaustion

Yes people I am exhausted this week and I've said it! :)

Kobi is a healthy little perfect angel of course but this week has brought a realization to me. As most of you know that I am a 40 hour a week working woman on top of that whole parenting thing. That both Matthew and I are blessed to have both our parents living about 10 minutes away and helping us in our daycare needs and have the best coworkers in the world for allowing us come and go as we please (figuratively speaking). So why you might ask could I possible be exhausted? Yes we were given these fabulous parents that are supportive and would do anything for us but on the other hand not only do I feel as though I have to raise Kobi as an active member of society, bring in a pay check thus sending Kobi to the best schools I can, keep a clean home and finish home projects, plan Easter and have time to simply take Kobi to the park, along with an array of endless self accomplishments that I have mentally given to myself but I've also been blessed with "old" parents. Not that that's a bad thing but I have a mother who goes into diabetic coma about once a month (and she's the healthy one) a father that's never recuperated after open heart surgery, a mother-in-law that is very, very sick right now (and hopefully its not TB... a whole other story in itself) and I think to myself are all families like mine? I love my parents dearly but at 27 should you already be telling your parents things like "You have three children and you should start thinking of who you want to take care of you"? These are the things I have let run through my mind today. So now you see why I'm exhausted. All that plus the fact that now it has hit me like a brick to the face, Kobi needs to go into daycare. I have missed another day of work because all three of mine/ Matt's parental units are sick (extremely sick) and the idea of being a stay-at-home mom truly has me saying FABULOUS except that whole needing to eat part. So again exhaustion has set in. On the plus side with having an extra day off I have had time to tour a "what appears to be" wonderful little person's academy but I guess I will know for sure tomorrow when Matthew is taking off from his schedule and scooping out the place, plus meeting with another promising daycare provider that works out of her home. Now that I am finished with my rambling (and I hear another glass of wine calling my name) I feel the need to say something uplifting and positive because trust me I am not this person who is a "venter". That wants people saying it's OK, its just a bad day, I'm sorry blah, blah, blah. That's so not me! So in a happy note (Drum roll PLEASE...) Kobi has used the potty! And I'm talking the adult, full size potty! Forget the potty chair people! Yes I may be cleaning pee pee off my bathroom walls, curtains, mirrors, etc (the joys of having a boy) but right now I feel as though there has been an accomplishment. LOL! Now let us all cross our fingers that tomorrow Kobi will find the potty to be as cool a place to be as today. LOL!